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[11 Nov 2006|04:33pm] hey not much has changed, haha. maintaining. I've been trying the library diet becasue I've been lazy with my schoolwork lately which is bad. Today I've had 1 frozen dinner (200calories - my favorite banquet turkey dinner yum) and black coffee. The library makes me feel so productive I get tons of homework done and I love it. I'm also going to print out lots of pictures of inspirational things to hang around my desk in my room. Nothing hardcore bones or anything, just some girls that are thin and have nice outfits and makeup and hair to motivate me to get prettied up everyday. remind me what I'm working for. i don't mean to spam or anything, but i've been OBSESSED with neopets lately, haha, and its really fun for games and stuff, so if anyone is bored out of their minds and wants to play neopets you should sign up here neopets its really fun and complex if you really get into it. but its fun for just games too. (if you need help with getting started PinkPT is a good help site. I doooo get special points for getting people to sign up so if anyone does it I would be super super super happy and my neopets will be happy too. haha. alright. take care! post comment

[06 Nov 2006|08:34pm] i need to be strict again. i need to get perfect grades. i have to feel EMPTY JHGDJHGJm. there is no way i can get this disgusting fat flesh off my body unless i am fucking strict. I KNOW what low calorie and restriction is and what is healthy and what is unhealthy. i eat fucking salad, and broths, and LOW QUANTITES of anything carby, I dont eat cheese or meat and IM STILL THE SAME GODDAMN WEIGHT IVE BEEN FOR YEARS. MY METABOLISM IS FUCKED THE FUCKED UP AND I NEED TO STOP EATING EVEYRTHNG until i fucking pass out and die cuz i hate being so fucking goddamn disgusting and huge. I count and limit calories SO MUCH, i watch other people put REAL dressing on their lettuce. Put croutons on. I watch people eating sandwiches and pasta and cheeseburgers and french fries, i goddamn fucking dont eat that shit on purpose and im still fucking DISGUSTING. GODDAMMIT TALL TO FUCKING HELL. 1 comment|post comment

[29 Oct 2006|12:27pm] so yesterday at the halloween party some girl asked if i was "brooke hogan" for halloween. i hate everything. i've never been so insulted. that bitch is HUGE. fucking huge. goddamn. do i really look like brooke hogan?? post comment

[27 Oct 2006|08:11pm] alright writing it down so i "don't forget" haha. healthy choice salmon meal - 250 cals vitamin water - 125 cals (didnt finsih it yet but ill drink the rest later) pink peanut m&ms - 14 of them, will check calories later. I'm thinking 160. or 250 to be safe? post comment

[27 Oct 2006|06:57pm] went to the gym today. didn't eat yet. and its 7pm! i got 11 frozen dinners. all banquet. all turkey dinners. all 200 calories each. HOT. soup for lunch (300 cal max, all vegetable soups), frozen dinner for dinner. gym everyday. we'll see what happens. post comment

[26 Oct 2006|10:49pm] starting a gym regime with my roommate tommorow. grocery shopping tomorrow. will give an update on that. i got the best midterm/progress report grades i've had in like 8 years. b+ b+ b+ b+ a- hot. post comment

[25 Oct 2006|03:11pm] today is good. midterm grades are posted tomorrow. i really hope i did good. ill post pictures of my halloween costume this weekend. totally. post comment

[15 Oct 2006|02:10pm] went to dinner friday and saturday thought i would die didnt realize my stomach had shrunk. didn't realize how purging everyday for 10 days would effect my body either. ugh. today = soup 120 coconut popsicle 120 post comment

[13 Oct 2006|02:13pm] toast 150 soup 240 brocolli 50 cookie (230) purged roughly 600 and its only 2pm god post comment

[13 Oct 2006|01:11pm] Weight has been fluctating like 6 pounds a day. It's fucking ridiculous. post comment

[10 Oct 2006|10:09pm] And I see no bravery, No bravery in your eyes anymore. Only sadness. post comment

[08 Oct 2006|06:20pm] down 9 pounds from BAD heavy summer weight. post comment

[05 Oct 2006|05:43pm] "Avoidance: The hyperarousal and the intrusive symptoms are eventually so distressing that the individual strives to avoid contact with everything, and everyone, even to their own thoughts, that can arouse memories of the trauma and thus cause the intrusive and hyperarousal states to go on. The sufferer isolates themselves, becoming detached in their feelings with a restricted range of emotional response, and can experience so-called emotional detachment ("numbing"). This avoidance behavior is the third and most important part of the symptom triad that makes up the PTSD criteria." post comment

[05 Oct 2006|05:38pm] 25 - 1 roll of smarties black coffee post comment

[04 Oct 2006|11:28pm] 300 soup (purged some) 300 latte. bites of brownie. post comment

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